Monday, January 11, 2010

Home Alone.

Today is the first day that Patrick returned to work. That means Baby Bennett and I, along with Lexxi, are home just the 3 of us today. Bennett was super good last night. He slept for 4.5 hours until the 1st feeding and then 4.75 hours until the next!!! Both Mommy and Baby got some good sleep in.

It is a bummer that Patrick had to go back to work but it will give me a chance to bond more with Bennett and to become more confident in my Mommy skills. I guess we all have to return to reality at some point... my time will come. It's already coming faster than I had imagined it would. I am dreading going back to work... I am dreading passing my baby off to the daycare lady. I want to be the one to take care of him. I want to be the one to hold him when he wants to be held. I want to be the one to feed him. I want to be the one to calm him when he fusses. It's going to take some time to get used to the fact that I won't be the only one to do that for him. I am trying desperately to enjoy my time with him now, but I can't help but dread the future. The near future. :( Just thinking about it makes me so sad!!!

We don't have a lot on our schedule today as this is our first day just to ourselves. So far Bennett's been snoozin' and Mommy has been trying to get motivated to do some dishes and stay warm. This house is quite drafty today.

We miss you Daddy!

1 comment:

  1. I'm dreading going back to work too! That first day will probably be the worst day of my life and I know I'll cry!! I try not to think about it too much though. Good luck being on your own. You'll be great and that's wonderful that he's sleeping so well for so long. Jack wakes up every 2-3 hours still!


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